Lost in Faith

In verse 37 Jesus says that we must love Him more than our families.  He sets up a hierarchy of love.  Who is first in line.  Who or what is it that I value most?  What gets my energy?  As I move thru my day what is it that I am aiming for?

Having grown up I a generation that loves personal peace and comfort more than anything else, I think I am captive of that spirit.  I don’t eat because I am hungry or I know that my body is in need of nutrition, I eat because it is time to eat irrespective of whether I need it or not or if God might desire me to miss a meal and use the hunger pains as a discipline for me to listen to him.

Father I wonder how many of my unconscious actions are simply intended to put me first.  Father how would I live this out?   How would I live as if you were my first priority?  How would I move into my world as a servant of your mission?

I sit here in Cape Town at the bottom of the world in a magnificent place.  How today with this small team of people that I barely know, do I live out you as my number one priority?

Father I know that I am living unconsciously incompetent in some areas of my life.  I want to move to the third step of consciously competent and miss the second step of unconscious incompetence.  I hate that step.  I hate to sit by and watch myself be incompetent but it is that step that creates the deep emotion (sorrow that leads to repentance) out of which the mysterious work of the Spirit comes.

Father, today as I travel with these people I am willing to live in that second step, consciously incompetent.  I pray that your grace will surround me and convince me of your love for me so I don’t run from my incompetency.